Being the second best..

    It's hard. There will come a time when you just want to lock yourself inside your room sitting in that corner thinking why aren't you good enough. You've done it all with the best you could but you still ended up the second best. This isn't purely about achievements but rather some other things we refused to recognize. It's when the your presence in non-existent. Everyone fails to recognize your existence. It's when you exist however they still look for another person's company. It feels so insulting but that outcast, i-don't-need-you is dominating and it consumes every inch of you and you ended up feeling, worthless because you're just the second best and everyone prefers the best.

     Tough discussions, long quizzes and term examinations. I have been too occupied with plenty of school stuffs. Sleepless nights, which ended up to me sleeping during class hours instead. I've been facing a great pressure and sometimes, I just can't deal with it. It tough, very tough. But, on the happy note, 3 more semesters and I'm off. I just think about it from time to time to motivate myself when times get rough and I feel like giving up. A year and a more and then that's it! :)

     Enough for that, I also celebrated my 20th birthday last 14th of July. It was just a simple celebration which I celebrated with my family and of course, my lovey. Although I celebrated my day with high fever and tonsillitis, I still had a blast. He sees to it that I am happy on my birthday and I highly appreciate his efforts. Wasn't able to take good pictures as well because I hated my face, that sick face. :/

     And lastly, I was finally able to finish the video I made for him on his birthday. I mean not really good with stuffs like that. I just really gave it a try and I am satisfied with the outcome. :)

     I'd love to share more but this is already long, next time, maybe. ☺

July 1, 2012 - We meet again, July ♥

     So yeah, July's kicking off and I can smell celebrations, a lot of it to look forward to. Mom and Dad are already planning for my day. I am not thrilled about it though but it made me happy to know that they're planning something for me on that day. On the other note, on 25th is his birthday, that I am really hippy about and quite anxious on what to give him or how to surprise him. Any suggestions you got there? ☺